Mind-blowing: Transforming ROBLOX into a Sketchbook + Epic Commentary

how’s it going bros my name is PewDiePie and today Bros this isn’t going to be your average Fooly gruy video it’s actually going to be a lot worse this is just going to be me drawing and talking in Roblox free draw so it’s not going to be the usual Mega JGA edited in like hyper brain rot bunch of things popping on the screen type of content this one’s just going to be Mega chill and the reason this week’s upload is kind of laidback is because I kind of had a rough week and I just want to chill out a little bit uh originally I had a another drawing avatars and spray paintt video slotted for this week so I do what I always do I told people on Discord that I was recording and everybody hopped in spray paint and I was drawing avatars for like 7 hours and I wasn’t recording I wasn’t recording never in my life has my soul been that crushed I recorded the the drawings so you can look at them here but it’s just not the same without actually watching the speed paint and watching the people react I’m sorry to everybody who thought they were about to be in a video uh I am an idiot now you’re stuck with this garbage video but yeah this is just me drawing in Roblox free draw as if I was drawing in a Sketchbook just drawing whatever I want whatever I feel like just having fun with art as always and you’ll notice that sometimes while I’m drawing an actual image it’ll cut to me drawing somebody’s Roblox Avatar because they drew fan art of me and I felt the need to return the favor so that’s that’s what that is okay so another reason why this video is so low maintenance is because uh I I don’t know if you can tell or Not by like the way my voice sounds but I got sick so and like bad sick like I was bedridden for like a couple days I don’t know being away from the the weekly grind which is making YouTube videos just got me thinking man it got me all existential and rethinking my life with like this whole YouTube thing which is stupid because I just started and it was supposed to be for fun but it’s putting me in a weird spot mentally so I kind of want to talk about it I think it was around like 3 or 4 weeks weeks ago my channel like blew up a little bit you know not Mr Beast levels obviously but my vids got a lot of attention for a second and it really made me used to like constant validation which is not something I’m used to I am not used to constant compliments being sent to my phone before YouTube My only IRL friend was my girlfriend Samantha but now I have a lot of internet friends which is a weird transition for a lonely introvert like me so obviously I’m incentivized to keep going with the whole YouTube internet thing especially now that I get paid So lately I’ve just been non-stop working on YouTube videos every day people always tell me uh don’t overwork yourself man don’t burn yourself out but it’s like I I I like it I’m going to do it I don’t know the grind don’t stop but then it got sick and I didn’t record and then the grind did stop and I got really sad for a second um I don’t know I’m about to get personal which is not something I’m used to with a bunch of strangers but [ __ ] it initially I didn’t even want to do YouTube I thought that YouTubers are like people who have an attention complex basically people who like never got attention as a kid so they like go on the internet for virtual attention which is a th which I I think everybody craves attention to a certain extent so you can’t really knock someone for wanting attention and then getting it by entertaining people but I do think for YouTube it it can make someone shallow when all you care about is the attention that you’re getting and like how many views you’re getting and [ __ ] and and I’ve kind of fallen into that hole a little bit for example this Christmas video I came out with like 2 weeks ago I am not happy with it and the views kind of reflect how it’s not as good as my my first two bangers which would be my second spray paint video and micup video which those are like my two magnum opus liting in the bottle videos right now and the Christmas one was just supposed to be that but Christmas edition but then it had so much filler packed at the end and stuff and I don’t know and plus the drawings were bad I think I was subconsciously sick of drawing people’s avatars but yeah back on topic though that video didn’t perform as well as my other two bangers so it kind of made me think oh well that’s it I’m dead my Channel’s dead it’s over for me GG but that is such a a stupid thing to say because it’s act that video is doing [ __ ] amazing man it has like 70k views and you know the one the ones I’m comparing it to have like 150 or somewhere near that which you know 7 K is still a lot when I first started this channel when I got like 100 views on a video I was I was excited man I was like holy [ __ ] 100 people that’s so much and now I’m sat here complaining about like 70k that’s 70,000 people so yeah I realize that all this is irrational and stupid but but no that video marked the first time where I was like really self-conscious about a video every single other video I posted before then I was like really confident with and like ready to upload it but for that one I was like dreading the second it came out cuz I thought the comments would be like oh rare Fooly l oh this is trash what was this bro but actually no that’s a lie I was self-conscious about the Q&A video but I don’t know actually lately I’m always self-conscious about when I upload a video but that always gets taken away when I read the comments which are always just so nice that internet validation man it really keeps you going but yeah the thing with YouTube is that like it’ll make you so numb to compliments ever since the algorithm picked up my content people will join off me while I’m drawing in Roblox and just make me feel good about myself they’ll say things like oh you’re my favorite YouTuber I love your art you’ve made me want to draw again and it’s like thank you but it’s also like I I know I’m not your favorite you [ __ ] liar there’s so many better channels out there and you know it’s it’s fun it’s nice I like it I’m happy with it I’m not complaining I’m not complaining the the point though is that when you’re getting a whole bunch of compliments all the time really nice thoughtful compliments so often on YouTube it it doesn’t feel as special anymore and you know that kind of sucks because back in the day I used to love me a good compliment you know us guys we don’t really get that many so for me when I when anybody ever complimented me that would rip my heart out I would go goooo Gaga for a good compliment man it would let me go for another two years but now I just hear compliments or well I read compliments all the time and now I can’t help but to feel like oh yeah you like my drawing yeah I know I’m kind of a big deal yeah I’m I’m kind of the [ __ ] but you know it’s that’s not an actual issue just an observation let me explain why I got all existential this week with the whole YouTube thing my initial dream with what I wanted to do with my life is like be an animator and hopping into this YouTube channel I was telling myself oh yeah this is just going to be for fun the Roblox thing but here and there I’m going to upload animations and I haven’t done that yet and I and I’m pressuring myself to not upload animations cuz I’m like I have the mindset set where like oh if it’s not Roblox it’s not going to get views and that makes me want to delete my channel and restart fresh and just only do animations but Roblox art is fun though I like doing this but it’s more of like a temporary fun thing to do while animation would be like a more fulfilling practice I guess so it’s like trying to choose fun over purpose and obviously the Chad big Alpha daddy would always choose purpose over fun which is why I was debating deleting this channel this week but I’m a big Mega Jaa Alpha daddy obviously you can still have fun and purpose so I’m going to do both so I think I’m going to post a cartoon here and there uh they’ll be short I’ll probably have to make them in a week and if nobody watches it I won’t give a [ __ ] because I liked making it but that doesn’t mean I like hate making Roblox videos I do I like making them it’s just that sometimes I get in my own head and I suck the fun out of it the thing about those two initial magnum opus videos was that like I was having fun making them but with the Christmas video I I I I’m going to be real with you it wasn’t that fun for a lot of it even with like flea coming in and the whole 20K special thing it that was a miserable video to make for me namely because it was the first video where I had to pull a whole all nighter just so I can get it uploaded within a week from the last one so my channel doesn’t [ __ ] die which is another mindset I’m kind of confused about like I’m I’m so scared to lose this Niche internet micro celebrity thing so badly that I’m willing to ruin my sleep for it but it’s like it’s taking the fun out of it man I also think I’m being less productive uh I don’t know why I think it’s a mindset thing or something I haven’t been working out since the Christmas video to try to be more productive on that video but I think ironically that’s making me less productive because if you don’t know working out keeps you in a more clear and concise mental state but yeah ever since that Christmas video it all went to [ __ ] I also had to pull a all nighter on that redesigning scary monsters video I did but but that that one was a lot funner to make that one was a breath of fresh air I definitely want to do more character design stuff and just try out new things in general you know add more variety to the channel hence why I’m trying a like just a straight up commentary video right now and funny enough that video is doing better than the Christmas one so I I think a key takeaway would be that if you’re having fun with the video it will probably translate to the viewers so just got to have fun man but yeah sorry about the whole wo is me speech um I don’t I know how cringe this is going to seem after I upload it but hopefully I don’t regret this upload but no I’m I’m just getting all of these thoughts out I guess call it therapy with Pewdiepie um and and and all of you are my therapist thank you anyways Bros that’s going to have to do it for now um if you’ve made it this far then tell me if you like this sort of content or not check out this neat fan art check out my Discord in the description thank you to those who’ve given me tips via memberships or super thanks and yeah okay bro fist okay bye thank you oh boohoo let me play a sad song for you on the world’s smallest viin