Shocking: Minecraft’s Intense World | The Death of Youtube

[Applause] Welcome one and all to uh the the door monster podcast God damn it what is it called the death of YouTube this podcast see that was that was shaping up to be like a really nice like funeral like eulogy speech welcome all to like a very

Like a like a moment like a rent moment like to the death of bohemia um but we didn’t get there but but I but nope I don’t come prepared to any of these and just dive in so uh welcome to the death of YouTube podcast I’m Kyle

This is Ian howdy uh we are uh two washed up YouTubers who used to have a very popular YouTube channel that is uh sort of plateaued uh I now do it by myself that doesn’t matter we’re back in time today back in good old 2014 because we’re going through and reviewing all of

Our old videos from when we first started doing them weekly and we finally got to the first video released on a weekly schedule yeah we did look at that it only took us uh seven eight nine 10 episodes um I think five I think this is

Episode five this this is uh we zero index them so it’s impossible sorry episode four why did I let you talk me into this is just what I do to people I’m I I’m people think of me as the like the angel on your shoulder but I’m

Literally only ever like not even the devil the devil has intention I am actually I’m just the spinning the in between guy like the spinning loading icon on your shoulder the clippy on my on my shoulder it looks like you’re trying to form out a PowerPoint sure am it let’s [Laughter]

Go well so this uh this this video our first video is Minecraft is intense and uh this was the first video that I started making uh on on a weekly schedule right after we released the door monster video which I mentioned at the end of the last episode but in case

You didn’t listen to the last episode basically uh in November of 2014 we put up this Halloween video uh and uh it blew up and I decided I had already been thinking at the start of the next year I was going to start doing weekly videos

And see how it went for an entire year but since door monster blew up I uh I made I decided to start it that that day actually I I’m pretty sure we filmed the video I edited it the next day it it got big on Reddit on that like Sunday and

Then the day after I went and started filming Minecraft as intense right that Mak that checks out I like how you provide all these I I I’m still pitching this to the hypothetical audience of Jorgen who is a man in a Cell who only has a play next death of YouTube but

Button on his wall well actually in the interest of trying to make it a little bit more uh widely accessible uh I thought I’d give some context as to what was going on in the world at this time uh according to on this day.com on November 10th

2014 okay uh The Hunger Games Mocking jart one uh premiered in London Uptown funk by Bruno Mars was released and the number one song in America was Shake It Off by Taylor Swift and maybe should have stayed that way and the world would have been a better place well see and

Here we are uh uh like 78 years later and uh 1989 Taylor’s version is about to come out and we’re about to have a shake it off again be the you know it’s going to be number one again right like there’s there’s no way it’s not so yeah

No we’re trapped in an infinite Loop that’s why we’re doing this podcast oh you’re right actually does this also mean if if so if uh mocking J part one just came out right that means did so uh does that mean that our acting like our our true acting Earth uh does not

Overlap with Philip Seymour Hoffman’s at all right that’s a that’s a weird fact to have point it out but you’re correct just cuz I remember him being in the first mocking J but not the second cuz he died in between right like yeah true not sure did he make it to the premiere

Of the first one I I did I mean you must not have right because they were filming them both at the same time yeah they filmed them back to back I guess right so this is also me trying to remember what was going on at the time so I’m not

Entirely sure I also have the way back machine pulled open for just the YouTube homepage at the time oh what’s up let’s see the popular right now list has um The Hobbit Battle of the Five Armies trailer gross also Girls season 4 and Orphan Black season 3 so those are

Obviously very well-known Milestones that people will remember not for good reasons was our video the best thing to happen to 2014 at least November 10th 2014 yeah I think so I think it’s funny cuz you kept saying like we we we did all this for for uh the door monster

Video but realistically this is a completely solo Kyle video right yes this is also when I started putting in a ton of work and then crediting it to a group that didn’t actually do that much of the work right and that stayed consistent for like five years and until

Suddenly uh the balance of like eventually we start making jokes about how you’re the only one doing the work and at that point uh we’re now I think by the time we start making jokes about it we are making we’re doing about like 20% of the work but at this point this

Is like one of the most truly independently Kyle only videos in the entire uh catalog yeah this one was this one was actually just it was a couple things it was the I needed something to start the the process off with uh and I had some animation scripts that I had

Planned on making but I wasn’t going to be animating anymore so I just like recycled them into uh potentially easy liveaction stuff to do this was one of them that makes a lot of sense this was the Showcase of my maximum VX abilities at the time between the last episode

With all of those videos and this we also filmed a movie um right right yeah we themselves that happened so we had yeah I I had already kind of started learning more effect stuff on that so this was me just kind of trying all that

Out all compositing cuz I I was still a long way off from trying any CGI at this point in between um zucchini and rhubarb and now right uh my my hair has developed a complete character Arc of its own having gone from the mighty mighty pah to being a central character

Perhaps more so than Scott in the guards themselves that’s all I have to say about that I like that you just kind of talked that into existence like I’m not even sure that that was ever real yeah yeah yeah but people now agree with you cuz you’ve just said it often

Enough I’m telling you it’s just the clippy on your shoulder it I will start off with I think unusually for this period of door monster this video has I would say pretty good color grading yeah I think it’s cuz I didn’t touch it much that would make sense yeah actually I just

Let the natural color of the shot be there I kind of learned my lesson and I think the only color grading that it actually happens in the video cuz at the beginning it’s all kind of dull and gray and then I start screaming and it like saturates it which is an interesting

Choice that I made I’m not sure why I did that there’s also a lot of people have pointed out that like the um the deer in the background in the opening shot like look at me when I start screaming which is actually just a a great little coincidence cuz I’m not

Actually yelling ever like CU this is this is on a golf course right behind my parents house so I never screamed because I didn’t want to draw attention to myself uh I’m just miming the yell and then I just recorded me yelling as long as possible a few times later and

Then like spliced them together into this really long scream you want to know something uh particularly stupid I watched this entire video in prep for this with the Clos captions on like I was expecting something else all of the close captions just as a quick shout out I think came from fans I

I don’t I barely submitted any of them uh well they’re so hard to do they are actually even now I have I can have a Adobe Premiere technically has a feature that can uh autogenerate captions but it does a terrible job so you have to go

Edit every single one of them this is our first video to get uh currently speaking in 2023 a million views oh nice it did not get it at the time no of course not yeah I think actually it’s because it’s the first real sketch on the on the binge watching playlist yeah

These got at this time it was pretty amazing if videos got I want to say two or 3,000 in the first couple of weeks well cuz I remember uh in one one comcom years down the road here um uh maybe not years uh because everything the time stretches out towards the infinite at

This point um uh but like it was a few I don’t know like 10 15 videos passed a bat by other man a bat by any other man had not yet cracked a thousand views and that wasn’t like disastrous at the time actually yeah I’m probably exaggerating

There probably was only a few hundred views on this video whenever I know crack open those analytics I don’t know my scale is off that’s a good idea I think I will do that because I’m I’m starting to remember I think actually even with the release of door monster we

Hit a th000 subscribers like that was also the first thing like I we’ had vide we’ve CED this and I think we just hit sub right before this video came out right we didn’t have a 1K week because we were too new um but it wasn’t like we

Weren’t like that that too new we had we had a big 10K week and we had a big 100K week um well even even in my mind like at a thousand it was like oh okay now I’ve started like even at the time it was like yeah this hasn’t mattered up

Until this point trailing back down a couple of these rabbit Trails real quick um looking at the the Clos captions right it is Clos caption in 11 languages oh I know oh I forgot about that oh I totally forgot I love our fans so much yeah no they actually they they

Submitted there’s so many Arabic Chinese Dutch Estonian French German Irish Norwegian polish and Turkish yeah so having checked it on the analytics it looks like we got uh 1,700 views on the first day for this one and then it it went down to like below 100 for every

Day after that that’s like really bad batting above average for the time period I we should check these on the next few videos just to kind of like I don’t know there’s got to be some like saber metric baseball people out in the crowd who are like yeah you know like

Just reminds me of things too because like the the another thing we did uh this week was we started doing community comments on that Friday I just decided to imitate what the YouTubers that I was watching were doing at the time because I didn’t know how to run a YouTube

Channel necessarily other than having observe from other people because there weren’t like guides available I imitated Freddy Wong a lot in terms of just like basic Channel like running your channel cuz he would be very open about like how he went about doing things and like how

They did their behind the scenes stuff you know like their scheduling and their production methods he had a lot of behind the- scenes videos and he had podcasts that I listened to community comments I just took straight from 5-second films actually that was something they did remind me again what

Is the actual overlap on on like Freddy W in 5Cs they all knew each other there were them and Corridor were all almost the same group they were just individuals that all worked together but like several of them had like gone to film school together or had jobs or

Something that where they work together right right okay I I’ve always love 5-second films because it exemplifies one of my very favorite elements of writing Mark rosewater is the lead designer for Magic the Gathering but he’s also got a really long-standing career in writing he wrote for Roseanne

Oh but he always says that uh restrictions breed creativity yeah that was always a big thing that I tried to like embody also right and I think 5-second films is probably like the purest form of that just like literally like like the atomic Purity form of uh restrictions breeding creativity like we

Have 5 Seconds uh we can get two scenes maybe three if we’re dumb and uh like and they made it work every single time yeah and I really that that Spirit was really inspiring between them and Freddy Wong they they all had this very like get the product made as quickly as

Possible Freddy Wong had a whole thing uh on a podcast that I listened to where he talked about like his his understanding of like the rule of diminishing returns the whole point being like the smallest amount of work that you do at the beginning is going to

Cover like 80% of the finished product right it’s like like you you shoot something and you have the footage you put together a rough edit you can watch it you throw in some basic audio editing and you’re good right and then everything else after that is nitpicking

And and it’s helpful nitpicking it it adds that level of Polish but like the more time you put into it the less time you progressively get out of it and you have to know when to draw the line when call I was very bad at at the time right

Well I think like one thing that we get better at at actually I would say we get better and worse at In Waves honestly is like we have to you have to pick your polish um because there are some elements that I think are non-negotiable in a quote unquote door monster capital

D capital M TM video copyright I guess we don’t we we never got cop which we didn’t we certainly did not get it trademarked because we were blocked by Monster Energy drink right I I I’m presuming that in the podcast you’re going to endit out with just a large

Satanic growl so we don’t get sued uh but it’s pretty evident when you think about it um uh but yeah no like uh a non-negotiables like I I think editing Pace that’s something you put a I don’t know I presume you put a lot of Polish into it like I’ve mentioned before I

Certainly wasn’t around for the editing but it’s always so tight and specific that I feel like that’s something you put extra time into I yeah I had to learn how to divide up the time I and I really I think was the best thing that I learned from this this whole thing was

An experiment at the beginning and and it and it was one the whole time like it stayed it stayed one and really paid off as one because I knew that I needed to be able to release a higher quantity so I had to make that rule where I was like

Uh just taking a page from Freddy Wong’s book I was like uh videoos going up on Monday doesn’t matter what state it’s in so if I want it to be good I better make sure that it’s as good as it can be and

I have to spend as much time on it as I can to make sure that happens but also I have to acknowledge the fact that there is finite time and so I have to I have to pick which Corners to cut because I’m not going to be able to perfect it and I

Spent way more time on say this video than I did on future ones because this one was all about like I gave myself the week I was like I want to spend a lot of time on these effects but I still want it up next Monday so I’m going to start

So I filmed it you know a week early and spent seven days working on the effects for this one and I think it pays off cuz starting now we don’t actually miss a week for a long time it takes a while yeah and when I I think I think we get a

Full year right like maybe I I I I don’t think I think at the end of the first year I all but three weeks or something and those three weeks were either due to complete emergencies and or right or some or or they were had actually just

Been like we replaced it with something else somehow uh even even if I hadn’t managed to get something up I learned more from this year of video production that I did in my three years of film School previously just cuz I made so much stuff it was really just my first

Understanding that like oh this is much this is just a much faster way of learning how to do this stuff is just doing it to the best of your ability and messing it up and then trying it again later and I wasn’t always happy with the

Videos but I always had this ability to like I put it up and maybe it got 1,700 views and that didn’t feel like enough but I was always like I was always able to be like okay well I can’t focus on that because I have to reset my sites on

The new one on the next week this this overlaps with my uh my actual profession which is stupid we say this all the time about language learning classroom learning is by far the least effective and the longest method to actually learning a language um yeah the best way

Is just like you just plop somebody down in Spain with like a guide book of I have no money uh please let me eat and uh where should I pee and like and other than that like you just kind of let him go and like they will by the end of six

Weeks no more than six months of classroom Spanish right this is a a a problem with my language because if you plop somebody down in the middle of Vatican City uh with like all they’re going to learn is like three stock prayers and I’m pretty sure that’s it in

Latin but you know yeah true there’s you really only have the one option for Latin don’t you right uh but other but that that’s beside the point the point is yeah immersion constantly uh letting yourself make mistakes letting yourself learn from mistakes and then I think

Nursing a little Grudge that you made a mistake so that you have a roaring Vengeance to correct it the next time is what helps you learn honestly yeah I do think that was part of it I had to just sort of accept that like okay I’m not going to have everybody here every

Single week and I had scheduled with you at this point to come over and film some stuff on the next Saturday I actually shot this entire video by myself too that makes sense yeah I no one else is out there it’s just camera on tripod

Pointed at me and I don’t know how I focused the shot well so I was going to say like most of them are so far away that you have infinite Focus going yeah probably that’s like most of them you’re just not like you’re in the you you set

Focus to uh like uh the background and you go the question so this is November right yeah which means it’s uh it is a nice chilly 80° out probably uh because I Al say like so speaking of like the color grading the one thing that really sells this video more than anything is

You have a perfect Steve blue shirt I did I found that at Hobby Lobby that was my first in Hobby Lobby all right they have all the solid color t-shirts nice I good to know yeah I know this is my first uh this was my first dress up that

Was also kind of a fun thing about this is that I just got to wear costumes all the time I just got to dress off as a bunch of different characters here here’s a an off topic sort of question uh there’s a huge gap between finishing the guards themselves and finishing the

Guards themselves right do we have a completed edit at this point no um the the guards themselves have been shot and had a a rough cut finish but yeah no you’re right there are two finish to the guards themselves milestones and uh the second one is not until 2015 when I

Actually spend like two straight months doing all of the postwork I was remember because I I was looking at the end I was like ah yes the fire eventually you get to generating fire effects my recollection of it is you saying uh that it’s basically just glowy smoke us yeah

So here’s a secret I still have not gotten to generating fire effects nice awesome cool okay Co I kind of have tried and it was a mistake that I chose not to repeat later because it’s actually really hard to do just generally talking about the effects here

Uh the the the one that sticks out the most to me is uh breaking away this wall from the garage yeah that was actually a a stock effect too they had they had this like fake gray preen erated wall so I actually got this shot to match the

One that I had so that the angle was correct genuinely was like this old like they had made it in the 3D modeling software and had done the simulation and everything and you just had that video footage and it was gray so you could set it to Overlay to match whatever you were

Putting it on so this is just my garage door open and I faked that wall in Photoshop I think and then I put the crack effect on it it doesn’t look real it sells the point I guess well it also to be fair we’re we’re emulating what is

Effectively fake 16 but bit right there was a lot of um making an excuse for how the effects look I definitely try to sort of use the context to be kind to myself in terms of how much work I actually had to put in and we will get

Back to that eventually with our our first no man’s sky video I remember actually oh yeah no my ultimate my favorite version of this now is just make it look like an old 80s TV show cuz then you can get away with anything and we actually do that several times

Throughout our our catalog to the point where I’m not done I fully plan I have a whole uh Magic the Gathering short film at least that I want to do that is purely imitating like old 80s fantasy partially because I actually I love that look and the feel of that so much and

It’s actually another reason why at this I do I do really like doing like complicated effects and stuff but there’s something about like having to work around the tools that you have that is just always enjoyable there is nothing I love more in in just in life

In general I mean throwing into a situation with subpar tools and uh just being able to exercise the willpower and brain power to make it work right and I think as long as there’s no actual Stakes that’s the that’s my brain drops a lot actual Stakes I’m sitting on the

Floor crying calling my mom or whatever like it’s you know um uh but uh in in ways where it doesn’t completely doesn’t matter like uh say the work you do for a living but I don’t I don’t know I just love that that exercise of brain power

And I really think that film making is probably like the premier way to do this in the world I think my favorite example of it in this video is the Sheep punch that’s still probably one of my favorite effects uh ever and will continue to be

Even though it’s not like one of my best ones technically CU it’s just this this whole this weird combination of it’s a base plate of me just punching the air uh and then I got like a shot of a like a like a stock footed shot of a sheep

That looked like it could be standing roughly in the same place and then I got just like two bags of stuffing also from Hobby Lobby probably and just threw it up into the air for another shot and let it fall to the ground and then combined

It all like was able to like go in and just kind of like tweak it all so that it looks like I punch the Sheep away and then all of its wool stays put and then Falls onto the ground a couple a couple of small notes here first off I have

This paused on a like a still frame of the sheet before you punch it and you can kind of see some like I I maybe this is just my bad uh film making expertise like filtering in but it looks like there’s green filtering up on onto the

Left side of the sheep which makes me think do they just like bring a sheep onto a green screen to film this no cuz I’m actually looking at the original footage right now there’s a VFX breakdown video that I’ll also Link in the description of this one you want see

More of it uh but it’s just standing on some grass it could just be reflecting from the environment around it like I couldn’t see color well enough and still can’t to confirm if any of the lighting matched uh right uh secondly speaking of matching um have you ever seen a sheep

Before or do you know that you are about 44 in this shot I needed the punch to land in the right place this is like a small cow siiz sheep it might it might be accurate to Minecraft though I don’t know I’ve thrown you’re right actually if you go

Into if you go into act genuinely though if you go into Minecraft in VR everything is so much bigger than you think it is well that’s because there’re instead of feet right we have uh one unit meure and that is a block right things are either one or two blocks high

Which I think is equivalent to like a meter in real life or something right so it’s roughly 3 feet like um the punch does land so you were right this is the right call yeah it’s that’s just one of those fun quirks of like making the effect

Work and this one has a lot of stuff like that cuz I was just using anything at my disposal at the end of the day it needed to look it just needed to be what I wanted it to be I think other highlights are swimming up the waterfall

Usually gets a shout out in the comments right it gives you like a a little graph of where people are most watching right oh yeah and like uh it definitely you can see the Peaks Rising during the waterfall really people that means that people had to have come back to watch

The waterfall scene I think they did that seems to be everybody’s favorite one they maybe even have like gift it and put it around the internet somewhere that one was fun because it was just it was just green screen that was just good green screen work of me like laying on

Something and pretending I was swimming the tree growing is pretty janky and probably my least favorite shot but it was like the punchline as I had written it in I just needed it to be in there so I actually really like the jankiness of the the tree growing because it s well

It sort of represents going back to this if we just pretend it’s a fake 64-bit 16bit Whatever video like this is not dissimilar from how stupid trees stupid grow in stupid Minecraft this is like the crowning achievement of somebody who never plans to do another V VFX in their

Life yeah exactly that’s a good way to put it uh and I I love it for that especially cuz like I mean I don’t know like like everything about it is just like a little wrong like you are now actually the size of like a large squirrel yeah I did not pay any

Attention to like size or there so many things I think it all makes it the tree is actually color graded in perfectly it’s a different color than the foreground or background trees but it should be because of the way the lighting is like I think it’s it’s a

Perfect fit at some point I learned a trick from Corridor uh way back when they probably don’t even use it anymore but it was uh you could basically turn everything to gray scale and then go into each color Channel and make it match to your eyes in Gray scale and

Then when you switched it back to color it would it would match cuz like the way that it visually represented that color spectrum in Gray scale helped you like accurately match it up um so that was my cheat for a while and it’s not perfect because it would still come out weird

Sometimes uh but I I do think I hit some sort of equilibrium around this time using that trick where it was like okay that’s that’s not technically completely wrong I green or whatever this reminds me of one of my favorite anecdotes uh from your life um uh that I was happen

To be there for which was hang around the Art Institute which by the way I did a lot for somebody who had no reason to be there talking to uh the color editor for the Gars themselves he was like uh dragging the the dot around to different

Parts of the color wheel and demanding uh that you tell him what color it was yeah people are are uh always very amused by the fact that I can’t see color which I I’ve never entirely understood why that’s so entertaining it’s it’s so much more of a boring

Disability than my version of it um which is uh being toned deaf uh cuz I I I I relate to your color blindness with my tone nness because they’re basically the same thing with different uh face organs right no that makes sense uh very rarely does uh like your performance

Aspects of color are like drawing stuff but you’re also talented at drawing so like when you color a fireman’s coat Ultra Radio Active Green instead of yellow everybody’s like that’s a weird color for a coat but my God his Line work is amazing uh uh but when I when I

Impressively fail to hit every note of firework in exactly the wrong way so much that like a four-year-old should be able to get some of it on accident it’s so much more entertaining for people I should be made fun of more and you should be made fun of less I don’t know

Why we really just haven’t showcase you’re singing at all my color just kind of became noticed because it was a part of the video work actually though those who shall not be named that is to say Ricky Lynn there’s several times when he makes me sing at the end of their’s rules for

That I’m and there’s a one door monster video where I was uh for some cruel reason asked to sing but I believe your better demons took over and you didn’t use my voice track right when I had everybody do the genuinely I think that was the first time that I I truly

Understood the depths of you not being able to think it was for it was the Crusader Kings video the musical that I did and I was like I’m G to have a chorus of people in the background just doing this one simple Melody and I’ll put them all together and it’ll be fine

It doesn’t matter who is doing it cuz none of them will be audible among the other ones but then yeah I have a whole I have a like a 10 minute long file of you just not managing to hit the notes it’s not only it’s it’s the interaction

Of being able to hit notes and like Rhythm I’m actually pretty good at usually but I couldn’t hit the Rhythm either because I was try but what’s frustrating is I can I’m not going to say I’m good at it but I can kind of Hit the actual King song in Hamilton oh

Really your version’s harder anyways back back to the point uh you were fluming uh Gary because you were calling out the correct colors but only because you knew where each color was supposed to be on the color whe oh yeah yeah no I I had I had that by this

Point had learned generally where in the color spectrum in the visualized color spectrum on Adobe software each color was and it made him so mad and I love that because you you were you were stone-faced you were not giving up the game I love that we have we’ll have to I

Don’t know if this is interesting for a podcast is it involves visuals but there there are images that Allison has pulled up where like it will correct the image to show normal people what uh things look like to people with color blindness and when I see them I can’t tell the

Difference between those and the originals but the weird part is I can tell you what colors they’re supposed to be Allison can show me just the picture that’s wrong where she can’t tell what colors they are because the colors are wrong and I can point to it and say

That’s yellow and it isn’t but then if she pulls open the original photo it is yellow like my brain has somehow compensated for it so I don’t know it’s weird right which uh which which color blind are you do you know that uh I don’t remember the name of it I always

They have ones it’s the most common one that do nothing to do with Minecraft is intense sorry that’s okay I do want to point out before before we get too late in is how important Minecraft was at the time but in a different way than now

Yeah we you know we we had just passed that era in my memory like we you and I and our other friends spent a lot of time on Minecraft in it early Alpha days because it was our way of hanging out outside of uh all being in in separate

Places that was kind of what we did back when I played video games every day we had a whole Minecraft server and the whole world that we had built and that’s how we spent time together um but then I didn’t make a Minecraft video for years afterwards to the point where at the

Time it was like well Minecraft’s irrelevant now and obviously that was not true because it never became irrelevant it had a weird dip though I think it did that’s a good point I think we really honestly like became real friends over Minecraft probably yeah no that’s absolutely true a lot of my early

Memories of you probably take place in a a fictional world right and that’s that’s great it’s like because it’s that that makes it as real to me as anything else um uh but then there’s like a dip where like I don’t know like only y cast is doing Minecraft because only yogs

Cast is smart right um but but Smart in a stupid way were the doing the Minecraft content like first uh and uh and I don’t know I never I I always watched their videos but I never like wanted to do those kinds of videos but we were playing around for a while with

Like different types of content that wasn’t sketches cuz we started this up so true to form we made a Minecraft video during the one weird dry spell where people weren’t that into Minecraft absolutely we did go us uh but also I finally started this up just slightly

Too late this is kind of where like our whole conflict with YouTube’s preferred type of video started is I finally started doing these weekly comedy sketches and at the end of 2014 and that length of video and that style of video had already started being pushed out

About a year earlier I’d say yeah uh in favor of things like yog cast’s 20 minute gameplay videos and that and the game playay uh style had really started taking off around the time that we started posting these uh YouTube preferred videos that were 20 minutes long so people would do these really

Long like gameplay sessions and then they would uh cut them up into shorter videos and they would release long videos every day and that was how you blew up in views uh and we did the opposite of that so as usual yeah it doesn’t bother me as much now at the

Time it did I was always really annoyed that the thing I wanted to do didn’t align with the thing that was paying off it was always kind of frustrating to me and I never really knew how to deal with it but I I never wanted to I I guess I

Made a decision I was always I I probably shouldn’t have been like continuously frustrated because I I chose which one I wanted I chose to do the thing that we wanted to make and not do the thing that was going to keep making us money but it definitely always

Sat in the back of my mind like a little bit annoyed until very recently honestly have I only started like feeling okay about that and like I made the correct decisions I guess I always doubted the decision that I had made is the main thing I was never sure I’m so glad that

You’ve reached a better a better place of healing and mental health that cuz can you imagine the alternative where you uh dedicate an entire podcast and name it something bitter and accurate about how YouTube has failed you as a platform uh that would be an awful

Future well you know I can do it now because it’s a joke right because it’s funny it doesn’t hurt anymore no no of course that’s why you can that’s why you can I am actually very glad that you you’ve reached that place that’s good because I I think all the time like I

Have always been in your your your Camp of do the thing that you love instead of the thing that makes me money so yeah I had a I had a lot of a lot of influences that kind of led me into making these Paladin esque decisions uh often against

My own Comfort even like like uh Freddy W like uh I presume like uh like Bill Waton and Calvin and Hobs who you’ve mentioned before is part of your your foundational aspect of uh like anti consumptive influences it was his fault he he did this to me and it’s uh it’s

Sort of like this does fall into the camp of like Bo Burnham has a great interview where he talks about like uh don’t take advice on luck in following your dreams from Taylor Swift it worked for her and you did just that and I’m glad that you did I’m glad that you did

Because well I there were points where I could have made different decisions like we’re going to get to the Civ videos like I I the smart technically smart decision early on would have been at the very least to just keep making C videos like to just dry up that well and then

Move on I’ve always had trouble living in the moment so even making these I was looking into this future where we would be going back and looking at these old videos so hi me but I was I I spaced stuff out like even next week we’re

Going to get to The Sims videos and we batch recorded those and I released them every other week rather than all at once because I thought it would be I was picturing people paying close attention to the channel and watching every single week as they came out as if it was like

An I treated it like an episodic TV show that’s what it was I didn’t treat it like a YouTube channel CU I didn’t understand that tactic of just just pure quantity at the time which is which turns out is the money-making tactic when it comes to capitalism or anything

Within this fi I really think actually that when it comes specifically the Sim videos I this is getting an next video but I think you were exactly right to do that and I’ll talk more about that next time like I I think at times episodic like treating like an episodic uh

Content is important at very specific stages of of our development and that includes right now with this being our first weekly video well and that’s you know at the time that’s what I wanted and it still is I guess I I guess that’s the thing I’m I I went through a period

Of like wondering if I had made the right calls but looking back on it even now uh the thing that I wanted at the time was actually exactly what I got like we created the situation that I wanted to create which was we we had a we developed a very dedicated fan base

That is still listening to this podcast right now hello back door right uh and I don’t know why that was the first name that came to mind but they they’re all there uh and we um like it it worked because at the end of this year we made

A finale video that people watched and they were like I understood all of that because I watched everything in order in real time as it came out and we got to hide doodle Con in the background of the videos and we got to do all these like

Fun things that we the the platform allowed for I guess that was the fun thing I I had watched people take advantage of and have fun with this platform in 2010 and I wanted to do that YouTube Feels Like A mockery at this point which is why we the podcast this

But you know it’s the death of YouTube because it was something that felt alive at a certain point like YouTube was the coolest [ __ ] at one point it was so cool that this thing existed where you could you could publish this fictional world of your own and then it could even

Interact with other people’s by like having guest guest appearances onto your videos like it was it was just free Ro television to me I guess that’s that’s what it was it felt like you could just go on and make your own your own show and that’s what I wanted to do and

That’s what we did and it worked and that’s uh not unlike Minecraft actually um man I’m good okay so I was thinking we could close these episodes out by revisiting some of the comments absolutely I was actually thinking of the same thing oh good I don’t know if

We’ll stick to it but I figured we could start I’m just looking at the first comment the top comment that is currently on this page which is uh from eight years ago about when it first came out from Green Lantern 8248 and he says really cool glad you guys are sharing

Your talent with us keep it up White Lightning which reminds me that we weren’t door monster yet right I keep I I haven’t been mentioning it but no we’re not door monster for like geez ever I don’t know not until 2016 actually this is a white lightning HQ

Produ uction at the time gross which I guess I’ll we can talk about that later yeah yeah yeah that’s fine the podcast to explain what what what that was thank you all for listening if you’ve been enjoying listening to these podcasts uh you can go to patreon.com

Doormonster and you can support uh us making these and continuing to make videos on the main Channel I guess that’s pretty much it that’s yeah yep that’s it so we will see you uh next week bye-bye H